I feel it again today…. I ask myself over and over again, what did I do this time? What’s wrong with me? Sometimes, more like most of the time I don’t understand people. I don’t understand how you can be so close to someone at one point and the next it’s like they don’t even know you exist. Sorry I try, sorry I thought we were friends…. I guess I was just another phase of a friendship to some people. I hear them talking about plans but they don’t invite me and when they do it’s always things I don’t like. It’s like they know I don’t like these things so they can invite me to make me feel good but they know I will turn them down. I have three things on my wall from three different “best friends” and looking at them now makes me sick. One is an encouraging letter and has best friend quotes on it. That was written over three years ago. We split ways and stopped talking for a long time. We are finally now picking up where we left off but nowhere near being the best friends we use to be. Another is a picture of this lady and I that she turned into a painting. It’s special to me but we don’t talk anymore, I haven’t heard from her in a few weeks. Every time I am home she is always too busy for me. The last one is another art piece. It has two trees I believe and they come together and it says “Best Friends” and one the back is a letter to me from her. The last part of that letter says “Best friends forever? Check yes or no” well she doesn’t seem to come around me anymore either. We use to be so close; we use to do pretty much everything together. I think this last one is the one that hurts the most. I thought I had finally found my best friend for life wow does it hurt when you realize that one was just a joke also. I don’t think people realize how much they can truly hurt people with the things they don’t say or do. They have all found a new best friend and now I am left here in the dust. What’s going to happen next semester when I am gone and no longer on campus? Will I be forgotten? Probably. Sometimes I regret my choice to not go far away, to not get far away from here and everyone here. Welcome to my life where I never know who my real friends are. Thanks for the feels that you guys give me.
You deleted your post. Why?
Trying to get rid of some stuff